
Confession to Montgomery, Asleep on the Church Steps
If I walk quietly by
it is not to avoid disturbing you,
but rather myself. What
could I give you
but another bagel, the
boiled dough of nothingness
rising in cloudy water,
delaying, perhaps, another
guilty twinge. You have no
answers but when you
speak to the air, sometimes
a smile creaks through
the broken words, and I
think even in this cloistered
darkness we may close
the circle between halves
and might-have-beens,
an understanding, if only
in the language of bread
and coffee and the
disregarded. But today I stride
on, without pause, counting
on nothing that can’t be
pocketed or spoken aloud,
my steps echoing down
the alley and its secrets,
along the crosswalk’s painted
guides, under the sagging
power lines and through
your streetlight’s dim halo.

This first appeared on the blog in January 2016. I have not seen the man who inspired this poem in over a year. I hope he has found shelter and kindness.
I hope he has found peace, love and a home. Its deeply disturbing that we live in the richess place in the world and we see images like this. 💔 simply heart breaking.
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We can only hope he is well.
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Such a compassionate post
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Thank you, Derrick. We often feel so helpless.
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“It’s not to avoid disturbing you/ but rather myself”- isn’t this the brutal truth? We are conditioned to fear not kindness in these instances. Good choice in light of the season.
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It is the sad, guilty truth.
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a good reminder to continue to love each other. Happy Holidays and a new year of hope!
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Indeed! Happy Holidays back atcha, Nancie.
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for both him and his little dog…brought me to tears
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These sights are all too common, and about to be even more common with our heartless current administration.
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yes – this disparity is worldwide…
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For no good reasons.
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This poem touched me deeply…. brought tears to my eyes. : (
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I’m so pleased it resonated with you. Thank you.
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This is so lovely
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Thank you, Barbara. It’s so easy to walk by someone without acknowledging their existence.
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The recent figure of 40 odd million living in poverty in America was a shocking statistic to learn. i had to double back & read it again to make sure it was correct. This is an honest poem Bob, we often find ourselves baffled by the scale of the problem & feel helpless. i used to do something for some homeless people or mental ill people i met around Manchester, & i always disliked it when people would say “you can’t solve the problem giving them cigarettes & tea” or “if you give to one don’t you have to give to everyone you see?” i wanted to, but i knew the limits of my ability to help. But i thought just a small act of kindness, a cigarette, a cup of tea, a chat, to give them presence, i look back & think, that was something at least.
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I think a simple nod of acknowledgment or a bite to eat can go a long way to easing someone’s burden, if only by a fraction. No, we can’t solve the problem like that, but those who might be able to reduce the problem won’t take the steps.
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Exactly. Like Wordsworth says in Tintern Abbey “The best portion of a good man’s life: his little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness & love.”
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Kindness is a currency we should spend more often.
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Tis. i have strayed in my isolation & my thirties for some reason, without meaning to. Silly really.
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Same here…
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The frustration in the face of so many easy hurdles few are unwilling to surmount, makes it difficult to muster the energy to not be angry sometimes. But i choke a lot back, repress it till i bust a nut one day. Kinda looking forward to that padded cell. I’m going to nickname it the Amygdala.
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Anger and despair. I’m tired of it.
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This is so clean and visual ( I love that image in the last line!) as well as deeply moving.
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Thank you, Polly. The images are from life…
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Yes, painted perfectly. I hope he is ok…
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So do I.
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Nice…
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