The Body Gives
Sometimes the body gives too much.
A tendon frays, the heart mumbles
and no one sees the damaged parts.
Ignoring pain, we continue climbing ladders,
sandpaper breath rasping the morning light.
Little bits of us crumble all the time,
yet we stumble on, pretending.
Then the body kills us with its enthusiasm.
Cells duplicate wildly, plaque explodes.
This enmity within? Defensive maneuvers.
Working alone, I wonder where I might end.
On the floor. In a field. Atop the bed.
Under the surface of a rippling pond
or drifting with smoke
through a snow-clad afternoon
at eight thousand feet. Among
the grocery’s tomatoes and squash
approaching the end of a long list.
At the bar, glass in hand, or in a truck
at a four-way stop, the radio blaring.
Time enough for speculation, they say.
But I wonder: when I jump,
does the earth always rise to greet me?
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“The Body Gives” first appeared in The New Reader Magazine, in March 2018.

Wonderful wonderings that I can easily identify with … and wonderfully read … thank you.
I breathed an audible sigh at “approaching the end of a long list”. Oh my, yes. Maybe a grocery list. Maybe an “organize my files list” (current weighty chore!). Maybe a travel reservations list. I’m wondering when I began making lists … who taught me this? … will I ever slow down to a pace that needs no lists? I suspect there will be an unfinished list (maybe several) left behind whenever I “jump” into the next dimension. I’m hoping in that new realm to be forever in-the-moment with no lists.
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I admit to being a list maker. I’d be lost without them. With them, I almost appear to be organized. π
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What a wealth of indignities and triumphs, alike, must comprise that “long list” whose “tomatuhs and squash” signify its approaching end!
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I’m hoping to survive a few more indignities and triumphs in the future! The end may be approaching, but I’m trying to stave it off.
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Something tells me that list will keep getting longer for a good while… π
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I hope so! π
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You can teach the world how to read Robert. And the query of the earth rising. Wonderful.
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Ah, James. You are too kind. Thank you!
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It’s hard to reconcile ourselves with being mortal. (K)
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I think I may now dream of jumping, and falling to nothing. I hope I survive the freefall, and remember to enjoy it!
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The freefall always ends, but itβs lovely before that. π
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