Until

cg00WmzYK8hOlevHgwEw4jIZEowAf5bO9fn3idGw

Until

This face looking back at me never lies.
I feel as if I’ve cheated, drawn the winning
ticket, passed the exam without suffering
through classes and boring soliloquies.
Then I see the sagging jowls, the dark
circles, those lines—so many of them—
marking time and various scars
invisible to the unaided eye. When death
failed to claim me, I inhaled the ecstatic
fumes of second chances, faked my way
through another sixteen months of drudgery
before pulling the plug. Now, seven years
later, a thousand miles to the north, I study
you lying behind me in bed, unaware
of my gaze, of the power you possess
even asleep, and I wonder how to retain
this minute, these days and all that will unwind
so slowly, so quickly, inevitably, until.

“Until” was published in (print-only) Shō Poetry Journal last June. I was thrilled to have poetry published in this excellent journal, and am pleased that the next issue, coming out in January, contains two of my recent pieces. Thank you, Johnny Cordova and Dominique Ahkong, for your continuing support! I urge you all to peruse their site, and to send them your best poetry.

Scarecrow Visits a Wheatfield in Auvers

Wheatfield with Crows

Scarecrow Visits a Wheatfield in Auvers

The corvids claim he was a crow. A man,
but still a crow, who knew the faith of grain
and light, the atomic distinction
between stillness and the wind’s first
flutter, the shape of loneliness and dark
skies parted by song and wing. He was
a vanishing point, and all-seeing eye.
Or, perhaps, dare I say, one of my kind,
separated from his base, destined
to observe, to record in bold,
thick strokes the hues that words
can only negate. In each of his fields,
celebration blossoms. We see what lurks
beneath the surface—that boy
walking outside the frame, a cat
behind the church—conversation
beyond speech. And in the sky, our sky,
crows suspended in directionless glory,
flying to and from, in simplicity, black
on blue and gold, above the wheat, without end.

This poem is special to me, as it represents success, such as that exists in the poetry world, on multiple levels. I wrote it as part of a fundraiser for Brick Street Poetry, a local non-profit poetry organization, and I am in great debt to Kerfe Roig for providing the inspiration, and original title, “Scarecrow Visits Van Gogh’s Wheatfield in Auvers.” The poem popped out, rather magically, almost as you see it here, in perhaps an hour. Then a few months later, a miracle happened—it was accepted for publication in The Threepenny Review, one of my white whales, an unattainable, if ever there was. Threepenny is known for quick responses. My previous two submissions were rejected in one day and two days. I expected the same for this, and was pleasantly surprised to make it to day three. And then I received the acceptance! Eight months later it appeared in print, nestled next to a story by Wendell Berry (!), and among works by Charles Simic and Philip Lopate, among others. I am still pinching myself…

Poems Published at Only Poems

Exclamation

I am thrilled that Only Poems has published six of my self-portrait poems, with an interview.  Editors Karan Kapoor and Shannan Mann have, against all odds, curated this beautiful, top notch weekly publication, featuring well known poets as well as those who live in obscurity (me). I am in awe of their dedication, and am very grateful that they saw fit to feature my poems.